Wintertime at A Doll's Life For Me

Wintertime at A Doll's Life For Me
My sister is the best Christmas gift I've ever gotten.

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

A Doll's Life File: Rapunzel

Happy Christmas Eve, everyone! How's your day been? The Room She Lives In right now reminds me a lot of a glacier... a chill surface with a deep, hidden underbelly. Luckily, this is one of excitement. This will be the kids' first Christmas and they can't wait to get a visit from Santa Claus tonight. Those of us who are Santa Claus can't wait to get a moment's peace for us to place the presents under their tree. Thalia, Kate, and Meiling all requested stuffed animals, but Adrina and Oliver, who are a little more mature than they are, wanted sweets. Pocahontas and Anelle have spent the day trying to keep both of these goodies away from the humans' dogs, but I think it's Sven we really need to worry about. Oh well. It's only for one night, right? Things are sure to cool down soon.
Anyways, here's a short and sweet post for you all about my Doll's Life File interview with the newest member of our doll family, Rapunzel.
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Elsa (Me): *approaching Rapunzel, who is painting with Bob Ross and Nessa* Are you busy, Punz?
Rapunzel: Um... kinda? *steps away and closes one eye, holding one thumb in front of her painting*
Nessa: Bob is giving us a painting lesson!
Elsa: I can see that. 
Bob: *walks over to observe Rapunzel's painting. He winces a little at her work and starts tapping out a comment* I thought we agreed to do landscapes, Punz.
Rapunzel: What? Really?
Nessa: *glances over* It's a portrait. Abstract. I like it.
Rapunzel: *shyly* Oh... I wasn't going for abstract. 
Bob: That's okay. It's your art. You do it however you want to do it.
Rapunzel: Yeah, but I was trying to make it as realistic as possible and... *sighs and turns to me* Okay, Elsa, I'm no longer busy.
Elsa: Don't you want to finish your painting?
Rapunzel: Not the way it's going, no. What did you want me for?
Elsa: An interview, if you're up for it.
Rapunzel: *sets her brush in a shotglass of paint water* Okay. I'm ready.
Elsa: On the bed, if you please.
Rapunzel: *observes the height of She's bed and swings her hair forward, the pink braid immediately wrapping against the bedpost and catapulting her upwards. She lands on the bed with ease*
Elsa: You've been practicing!
Rapunzel: For three months now.
Elsa: *climbing up the side of the bed* Ever since you arrived?
Rapunzel: *nodding* Since day one.
Elsa: I can believe that. You're good at it.
Rapunzel: It seems to be the one thing I'm good at.
Elsa: I'm sure you're good at other things.
Rapunzel: Not anything I've tried! I've done painting, sewing, baking, dancing, and even candle-making. It's everything my character likes to do. But I'm not good at any of it.
Elsa: Have you tried thinking out of the box?
Rapunzel: How?
Elsa: Well, I mean, like... *struggling for words* what if you did something your character wasn't good at? Something that she never tried before?
Rapunzel: Then I wouldn't be a Rapunzel, would I?
Elsa: *noticing Punz's sad expression* Hey. You would be. It's in your name.
Rapunzel: *doubtful* Sure.
Elsa: *opens She's laptop and begins a new post, eager to change the subject* This interview will be published onto my blog, is that okay?
Rapunzel: *moving in beside me* I guess so. Isn't that how you've done it for everyone else?
Elsa: Yes, but how did you know that?
Rapunzel: Nessa told me. She said you've had the blog for about five years now?
Elsa: *shocked* Yeah... wow. The anniversary would have been last November. I can't believe we didn't even do anything to celebrate.
Rapunzel: It's not to late. Everyone loves a party.
Elsa: Okay. Yeah. Maybe later. Anyways, let's get back on track. What's your full name?
Rapunzel: *sheepishly* Um, I don't have a full name... but my kingdom's name is Corona. Does that count?
Elsa: *typing* Of course it does. What about your finding date.
Rapunzel: September 23rd? 
Elsa: Yep. Species?
Rapunzel: *confused and slightly disgusted* Species?
Elsa: Like... kind of what you consider yourself to be. Olaf's a plushie, I'm a sixteen-inch singing doll... stuff like that.
Rapunzel: My old box said that I was a twelve inch Disney princess doll. But I haven't seen that box in ages.
Elsa: That's probably right. *remembers* That's right, you didn't come with a box, did you?
Rapunzel: *shakes her head* Nope.
Elsa: Alright. You're done, Punz. You can go back to painting class now.
Rapunzel: *glances worriedly over her shoulder at Bob and Nessa conversing below* That wasn't as long as I thought it would be.
Elsa: No, they never are. Nessa said the same thing whenever her interview was over.
Rapunzel: Elsa?
Elsa: Yeah?
Rapunzel: I don't really want to go back to the painting class.
Elsa: That's okay. You can sit here with me. Watch me work.
Rapunzel: That would be nice. *leans over so that her head is resting on my shoulder* Can you tell me about your powers?
Elsa: Um... yeah. *is slightly taken aback because no one has ever asked about my powers before. It was a natural thing in our doll community. So many dolls had powers, we even had our own Avengers group. Magic was not as magical as it used to be* 
Rapunzel: How did you get them?
Elsa: I don't know. I guess I was born with them. Er... made.
Rapunzel: Nessa keeps talking about trying to convince She to take her to Frozen 2. Maybe your powers have more explanation in that movie.
Elsa: I think they will. But I have to realize that my character is not me. Even if it is revealed how Elsa gets her magic, it won't be the same since I'm a doll.
Rapunzel: Yeah. Maybe you're right. *uncertain* How did you learn to control them?
Elsa: I always could. My powers are only activated whenever my switch is turned on.
Rapunzel: Your singing switch?
Elsa: Mm-hm. And then I can only make ice if I'm singing. *nudges Rapunzel* Kind of like your character. Hair that glows when you sing.
Rapunzel: Not mine.
Elsa: Well, like I said before, you're not everything your character is. That's the great thing about being a doll. You never know who you're going to be unless you try.
Rapunzel: Yeah, I should be feeling that way, but I don't. *sighs* Sometimes I feel like my only worth is my hair. It's like the only thing that roots me to the real Rapunzel. Well, okay, not real, but you know what I mean. She has long hair, so I should, and if that's the only trait we have, I need to cherish it. *straightens out the end of her braid* Like Rapunzel says, "a gift like that- it has to be protected."
Elsa: *pauses* Rapunzel, I have some advice for you. I can see you don't have much of your own identity-
Rapunzel: *groans* You know me.
Elsa: -I think you should spend time outside your comfort zone. Think of Jocasta. Her original intention was to be an art doll. A model. Sit still, look pretty. Now she does anything but remain still. She's constantly moving, constantly training, sword always at her side. She's a warrior now.
Rapunzel: You're saying I'm a warrior?
Elsa: Not exactly. Just saying that you should experiment more. You can find your true self that way.
Rapunzel: I can, doesn't mean I will.
Elsa: Would the "real" Rapunzel be a pessimist?
Rapunzel: *closes her mouth sternly* No... I'll try my best, Elsa. Thanks for you advice. What do you think I should do first?
Elsa: You're good at using your hair to get around. Steve is downstairs playing darts. I'm sure he'll teach you to make your hair look more than just "beautiful". He can show you how to use it as a weapon. 
Rapunzel: Are you serious?
Elsa: Sure! Anything's possible. If I can do this... *turns on my switch and swirls my hand around in the air, creating a fluffy white snowball* ...you can do anything with that hair. Trust me.
Rapunzel: Elsa?
Elsa: Yeah?
Rapunzel: Thank you. 


Full Name: Rapunzel of Corona
Finding Place: Ebay, originally from Florida
Finding Date: September 23rd
Species: Twelve inch Disney princess doll
Strengths: Will try anything once, good at socializing, sweet
Weaknesses: Insecure, somewhat vain, cowardly

Status: This eager learner still has a lot to learn- about herself.

Monday, December 23, 2019

Preparing for Christmas

Well, everyone, Christmas is quickly approaching and it's high time we get ready for it! Thank goodness our doll family is bigger than ever, because there was certainly a lot to be done before the big day arrived. It's the kids' first Christmas, which made things even more exciting for everybody involved. Here's just a few pictures I took from yesterday whenever we were doing our Great Christmas Checklist, as Loki calls it. He says it doesn't have to be in any particular order.
(Also, a quick update on the Halloween post that She said I would be posting later... I think it is best if I publish it next October. If I get a request for it, I will publish it earlier than that, but it doesn't make sense to me to have a Halloween post until "spooky season" returns. Sorry about that, guys! Thank you for remaining my loyal readers.)
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Step one to catching the Christmas spirit: get festive with some new clothes! Accessorize with warmer things to wear like hats, mittens, and capes. Definitely capes. One of Olaf's favorite part of Christmas is putting on his green-and-red knit hat. 


Step two: fire up the oven! Dorothy and Idina just love baking and decorating cookies anytime of the year, but especially December. This year, they made royal icing by hand, which had a whipped texture and a mouth-watering crunch (well, if doll's mouths could water).


Step three: play in the snow! Don't have snow? A friendly Elsa doll might be able to help you with that. Don't have an Elsa doll? Well... an indoor snowball fight with large white pom-pom balls works, too. Luckily, She got snow for Christmas this year, and the kids were able to build the snowman they've always dreamed of. (Thanks to my magic, they could bring it inside.)


Step four: get cozy! The best way to do this is to build a fire, cuddle up in some blankets, and turn on a nostalgic Christmas movie. Thalia tends to fall asleep every movie we try to watch together, so A Charlie Brown Christmas is the perfect length for us. Of course, hot chocolate or any other hot beverage is a requirement for step four.


Step five: catch up with some old friends. Since we dolls all live together, this is very easy for us to do, but not so for humans. One of She's Christmas traditions is writing cards to all of her friends and family that She doesn't get to see very often. It's always a nice way to keep in touch and tell people that you're thinking of them and wishing them the best.


Step six: take some time to reflect. Christmas is not always an easy time for everyone. With so much to do, it can be stressful or even saddening whenever we think about the people or dolls we won't be spending the holidays with. Remember to put yourself first, or else you sacrifice any strength you would have had to help others. Think about all that you've accomplished thus far and remain optimistic about your goals for the new year.


Step seven: decorate a Christmas tree! This is my personal favorite part. The humans have two trees of their own, the tall one downstairs and the smaller one in the upstairs hallway. We dolls have already had a tree of our own, but the kids got their own this year. They wanted a special tree for themselves, so this one glitters and even glows!


This year, Jocasta was voted to be the one to put the star on the top of the tree.
So what about you guys? Are you prepared for Christmas? What are your traditions, and what do you do to get into the holiday spirit? Feel free to leave me a comment! I'll be sure to respond.


Ready for Christmas,
Queen Elsa Rodgers

Thursday, October 31, 2019

Pocket-Sized Avengers: Assembling the Heroes P.4 (Rhodey, Thor, and Vision)

Chapter five: A Vision Unseen
Deep within the bowels of district one, warehouse number three, a doll laid within a package, focused and stiff as a corpse.
He was the one doll that saw things whenever he closed his eyes, although he was not sleeping.
He saw visions of the future, of what will be and what currently was, and in his mind he saw six dolls, each with their own separate lifestyles, slowly coming together like pieces in a puzzle.
One day they would be there for him.
But today was not that day.
Today, they were fighting for their lives.

Chapter six: Better Late Than Never
Recuperation wasn't easy after the red woman exploded.
Kamala Khan had led them on, that much was obvious. Rhodey had suspected she was a double-crosser all along, the wild goose chase she conducted only further cemented his theory. Loki, blind with rage, had banished her, forbidding her from every joining the bounty hunters again. Kamala had been lucky. Other traitors had died for their crimes immediately. Rhodey guessed that Loki still had a soft spot for her. She might as well be dead now, though. Bounty hunters were everywhere in the warehouse. Rhodey could only hope that Kamala would get out and find a home soon.
Rhodey didn't have that kind of hope for himself.
He'd been with Loki's gang for nearly three years now. Three unhappy years spent with the bounty-hunters, where your identity became a number. Yet, Rhodey knew there was safety in numbers. His occupation had allowed him to afford a fairly comfortable lifestyle. He had his box well out of the humans' sight, and furnished with air pillows and packaging peanuts, a luxury, really. Still, it was a lonely existence. The bounty hunters under Loki's control were probably nearing the thousands, and Rhodey knew only a few by name. Even then, they weren't his friends. It was difficult to make friends when everyone was a number.
Rhodey knew he had been at a crossroads in his relationship with the bounty hunters before he saw what the red woman could do. He liked safety, but he was lonely. He liked luxury, but he hated the hunt required to gain it.
It the red woman who made him choose a side.
It should have been a normal day.
Loki had assigned them another target. A Scarlet Witch All Stars figure, about three and a half inches tall, about four weeks old. Easy. But... Loki had paused here, he liked the drama... she was a Blazing Soul. His minions muttered worriedly, but Rhodey had been expecting this. Bounty hunters don't target useless dolls. And if this Scarlet Witch doll didn't have money, she had to have power.
And power she did have.
Karl had turned her in. He would be heavily compensated later for such a gift, but unfortunately, the Scarlet Witch doll was not naive. Karl was her mentor, her friend, and maybe even her family, but everyone knew that she used to be a Rogue Soul, and that title was not to be taken lightly. She came out of hiding on fire, and that fire grew with each minion she kicked out of the way. She was this controlled chaos that struck a chord within Rhodey. She was an oxymoron. She was like him.
But when he took their leader, Loki, by the neck and hurled him through the air, things changed. This Scarlet Witch doll, the woman blazing with a bright red light, was not like him. She was better. Better than Loki, even.
Rhodey decided then and there to leave his life forever, and all that he knew, and follow her. Both literally and figuratively.
He pretended to be wounded in the battle. He collapsed to the ground when the others ran after Kamala Khan. Underneath a slightly closed eye, he saw a flash of red as the doll crawled away to safety. Rhodey waited for the warehouse to resume stillness again, and then he somersaulted upwards until he was standing, then walking... walking out of his old life and into a new one. He did not know where the red woman would go, but at this point it wasn't important. All Rhodey had to do was work on being a few steps behind the red woman and her new crew, yet not close enough to be noticed.
There would come one day where he was noticed, but that wouldn't be for a while, when times had certainly changed.

Chapter eight: The Naive God
Warehouse three was a place of many gods.
Literally.
Thor 54 was one of them; one of many other Thors who existed there for however long they had to exist until a human came to collect them. Thor felt neutral about the whole idea. He did not care whether he went or he stayed.
He did not care that he was treated like a god among men, a doll that people practically worshipped for the sake of his character's strength, humility, or beauty. Women called at him from the shadows, eager to get better acquainted with his scruff and chiseled muscles, but he paid neither of these groups any attention. Thor had a one-track mind. Nothing mattered to him unless it had to do with reaching his goal: finding Loki.
A lot of dolls were looking for Loki in those days.
The hunters were becoming the hunted as more and more people in warehouse three became tired of living under Loki's reign of terror. But Thor was not searching for the Loki, he was searching for his Loki. This Loki he believed to be kind, patient, and understanding- the exact opposite of the one with a target on his head. Thor claimed to have seen this Loki in a dream on the day he first came to life, and whenever he told this story to other dolls, nobody believed him. They had lived in a world of malice for so long, they did not think a world of compassion could exist.
Because of this dream, Thor was mostly alone.
Still, he never gave up hope. He wandered the warehouse day after day, only stopping to sleep whenever humans were around. There would come a time when he wandered a little too close to the humans' reach, and he would be put into a box and shipped away to another home.
It didn't bother Thor.
He would just learn to look elsewhere.

Chapter nine: The Mysterious Bird-Man
Wanda had learned to move on quickly. Every day, when Karl, or the Ancient One, or Kamala Khan entered her mind, she shooed those thoughts away with a reminder of her gratitude. Their small group of Avengers were all she had now, and they were enough.
By day, they traveled across the warehouse, sneaking by the humans' watchful eyes, and by night, they hid and rested, being wary of any sounds around them. Just because they had escaped didn't mean their past was willing- and ready- to catch up to them.
Despite this, Wanda felt she could relax. Sure, there was a target on her back and big and bold as the red leather jacket she always wore, but she felt protected among the guys. More protected than she had with her previous "family", who always warned her of danger that she had not even encountered until the day they had betrayed her. Chris, Tony, and Hawkeye didn't pay much attention to their present situation. Chris and Tony would always come by with a witty quip or pun or distract everyone, and Hawkeye never slept, allowing the others to let their guard down. Because of that, he was considered the leader of their group. Chris, since he was more responsible than his partner, became second-in-command. Tony was then designated to comic relief. Wanda wasn't sure what she brought to the group, if anything, and she was desperately eager to find her place. She wasn't going to settle for being the "token woman". Anything but that.
The role soon came whenever Chris and Tony were discussing their plans to leave the warehouse one night. Hawkeye was standing outside their hiding space, acting as a guard. Wanda's eyes kept darting to the entryway. She heard voices outside.
"Anyways, if we're ever going to leave, we're going to have to get the humans' attention somehow," said Tony. "They won't take four measly dolls shipped together. We need a bigger group."
"I heard somewhere that an Ant-Man doll got out in a group of six hero figures."
"Yeah, but he can get small," Tony sighed. "It's not fair."
"Not this Ant-Man," Wanda added. "I heard this, too. That Ant-Man wasn't a Blazing Soul."
"A what?"
Wanda shook her head. She felt like that should be kept a secret. It had certainly hurt her head whenever Karl and the Ancient One first revealed the secrets of the world to her. "Nevermind."
"It doesn't matter what he is. What matters is that he got out. In a group of six, huh?" Chris scratched his chin. "That doesn't seem too bad. I figure we can recruit a couple more dolls by the end of the week."
"Why the end of the week?" Wanda asked.
"Christmas." Chris said grimly.
"Christmas." Tony agreed, in the same tone of voice.
Wanda hadn't been living under a rock, although it had felt that way at times, what with the dark and cramped spaces. She knew that Christmas was important to most humans, and somehow, this important time meant a lot of toys were being ordered. After that time though, as soon as January came, any toy left behind in was sure to remain until next year. Nobody ordered nearly as many toys during the rest of the year than they did at Christmas.
Wanda sucked in her cheeks. "Well, you boys can leave that to me. The Ancient One used to provide sanctuary to lost and hunted dolls. Maybe we can do the same, and then we can take them to the humans and then," she shrugged. "Who knows what then. Hopefully we'll get shipped out and end up somewhere nice."
"Ain't that every doll's dream?" Chris laughed. "Okay, Wanda. You seem to know what you're doing; we'll leave you to it."
"It's the... 13th. December 13th," Tony said. "We'll give you until the 20th to find two more dolls. That's a week from today. Can you do that?"
Wanda smirked. "I'll try. It's not like I'm wanted dead or alive or anything like that."
"That's the spirit. We'll tell the plan to Hawkeye tomorrow."
At the mention of his name, Hawkeye's shadow dipped away from the entryway as he came in through the hole in the box that was their makeshift room. He cast his eyes upon Chris and Tony suspiciously.
"Hi, Bird-Man. What's up?" Tony asked casually.
Hawkeye grunted in reply.
"Who were you talking to?" Said Wanda.
"My brother," Hawkeye replied. "Saying goodbye." And that was all he said about that.
Chris watched Hawkeye cross the room and crawl into his box without so much as a backwards glance. He clapped his hands once. "Alright! Bedtime."
Chris and Tony went to their separate boxes, yet Wanda didn't move. She didn't have a box anymore. She had left it at the Ancient One's sanctuary, and with good reason. Hawkeye had warned her that going back was dangerous. Any identity outside of yourself was like painting a target on your back for the bounty hunters. Hiding was more important than comfort.
"And Wanda, hey," Tony hissed, minutes after Chris was breathing softly beside him. "It would also be okay for you to pick up a third doll for us."
"What? Why?"
Tony cocked his head at Hawkeye's box. "As a replacement for that guy. I don't fully trust him. I feel like he could be working for the..." he lowered his voice even more. "...the other guys."
Wanda secretly felt the same way. She didn't want to believe that she would be betrayed again. She knew that Chris and Tony had good hearts. Their actions were simple and intentional. Karl had been shifty, moving without noise, thinking deeply before speaking, and always avoiding eye contact with Wanda. He was afraid she could read him. She could. Chris and Tony were earnest. They hid nothing. Hawkeye, however, had his eyes concealed behind his purple glasses. He wore them all the time, but did he wear them when going to bed? Would he notice if someone took them away?
"Tony," Wanda whispered back. "I can read him. I mean, I can read his mind. I can do it tonight."
"Wanda, I'll love you forever," Tony settled back into his box. "You're excellent, you know that?"
Wanda smiled. She was excellent. People thought she was excellent. She wanted to prove that title correct. Wanda waited, sitting cross-legged to keep awake in the same way the Ancient One had taught her to. Tony's breathing followed, a deeper murmur than Chris's. Still no sounds from Hawkeye. Wanda groaned internally. Did the man ever sleep?
When the light began changing outside, Wanda decided that it had been long enough. It was now or never. She crawled across the floor until she reached Hawkeye's box. He was settled rigidly into the clear plastic casing, one hand an open fist and the other gripping his bow. It was unloaded. Wanda ran a finger across his palm delicate as a snowflake falling on hair. Hawkeye murmured, but not comprehensively. Yes! He was asleep.
Wanda locked her fingers under the glasses and lifted them away from Hawkeye's face. His eyes were ready for her now, shut in multiple creases that made him look old and worried. No wonder he wears these all the time, Wanda thought. She rested her hands on his temples and closed her eyes. Time to dive in.
There was the sucking sensation as his dream was transferred to her mind, which which common. Wanda had been expecting this. What she didn't expect was the voice that she heard, clear as day, fading in and out around her.
"My brother," were the words. "Saying goodbye."
In her mind's eye, they were outside the lair. It's brighter outside; it's not safe. She saw herself in Hawkeye's body, which would have been a welcome change had she not been distracted by another man that stood before her, hunched over and nursing a broken arm like a baby. He spoke to her.
"It's not so bad- really, it's not. Stop worrying about me."
"I should be worried," Hawkeye's voice responded, coming uncontrolled from her mouth. "I thought you died. I thought you died along with her."
The man looked up. It's another Hawkeye. It was like staring into a broken mirror. His eyes are shining with sorrow. "Yes. Her. Tatanya. I'm so sorry."
"Apologies won't bring her back," Hawkeye snapped, but then softened. "No, I'm sorry. It wasn't your fault. It isn't your fault she is gone. If anything, it's mine. I took the shot. I couldn't catch her when she fell," he paused. His head felt ready to burst. "I couldn't stop Loki from breaking your arm."
"I told you- it's nothing. You've been through worse than I have. I can get another arm... somewhere, somehow. You can't get another Tatanya."
You don't think I know that? Hawkeye screamed inwardly. In reality, his jaw was set. The glasses didn't show his emotions. He was composed. He was cool.
"But I see you have another woman in there. Who is she? Looks like-"
"Emily," Hawkeye finished. "It's not her. Another one like her, but not her. She's got powers. Big ones. She single-handedly defeated Loki and all of his minions. I saw it myself. I'm sure you heard of that, too."
"No wonder you're keeping her around," the other Hawkeye said, trying to make light of the situation. "I have heard of it from another source. I was kicked out of the bounty hunters whenever he broke my arm. What good is an archer if he can't shoot, right? Not like I was a good shot, anyways... they miss you, though."
Hawkeye clenched his fists. "Miss me? I'm replaceable. Loki saw me as nothing but a pawn in his little game."
"Yeah, but you were a special pawn. You were the queen... or whatever. Something like that. I've never played chess," the other Hawkeye waved his good arm around in the air, the one not bound together by packaging tape. "How is it, knowing that you'll never be safe in here again?"
"It's wonderful," Hawkeye sniffed, his jaw raised. "Refreshing, even. I have more freedom than I've ever known before."
"Yeah, and no fear of expiration, not with Emily 2.0 to protect you."
"I'm starting to worry that that's exactly as I see her," Hawkeye confessed. "Her name is Wanda. Not Emily. And yet... I feel that, by keeping Wanda by my side, guarding her, conversing with her, making sure she's never lonely... I feel like I'm redeeming myself. What I did to Emily was unforgivable, I-"
"I'm sure she forgives you," other Hawkeye said. "Emily was never one to hold a grudge, for as long as I've known her," he blinked, as if suddenly realizing or remembering something. "Oh god, my sister. I've known her forever. My sister. Emily."
"Hey," Hawkeye rested a hand on other Hawkeye's shoulder. "Do you need to come inside? You could sit down for a while. Chris and Tony are pretty accepting. You don't have to tell them that you were a bounty hunter. I didn't."
Other Hawkeye shook his head. "No, no. No. I'm fine. I'm okay," he inhaled and stood up as straight as he could. "Kamala has been kicked out, too. I'm living with her for now, and she gets all panicky whenever I'm out too long at night."
Hawkeye nodded once. That was understandable, given everything that had happened to them. "Be safe heading back, alright?"
"I will be," other Hawkeye turned on his heel and began to hobble away, but then he stopped. "I won't see you again, will I?"
"No," said Hawkeye grimly. "I have a feeling that Chris and Tony will want us out of the warehouse before Christmas. That's when most of us will be packed away."
"I don't think I will be. I'm a broken doll now. Nobody wants damaged goods."
"Not at a full price, anyways," Hawkeye managed a smile. He ran a finger under his friend's chin. "Keep your head up. Kamala is one of the smartest dolls I know. She was Loki's right-hand man for a good reason. I guarantee she'll have you in a box by the end of the week, even if she has to drag you there."
"She might have to." the doppelganger chuckled.
Something rustled close by. Both dolls sprung into action, like statues ready to strike.
"It's nothing," said the other Hawkeye. "A red light. Maybe from the warehouse alarms?"
"Yeah, maybe."
The doppelganger fell against Hawkeye in a half-hug. "We had a pretty good run, Clint. I'm glad you're my brother."
"Mm-hm." Hawkeye murmured. The words he wanted to say were building up inside him like rain in a cloud. They were bound to come out if he didn't leave now. And they were pushing Wanda away. Pushing her, forcing her, out of his head. Almost like... he was waking up.
Wanda lept back just in time, crouching in the shadows by the side of Hawkeye's box. He was sitting up now, rubbing the places where Wanda's hands had been. She tried to still her breathing, although it was difficult after all she had seen. How was Hawkeye still so calm?
"Wanda, I know you're in here." Hawkeye said. His voice was clear as day.
Wanda slunk further away from Hawkeye's vision. It didn't work.
"I can see you, Wanda."
"Hi, Hawkeye," she said sheepishly. "Just... um... checking up on you. I thought I heard something."
"You saw something," Hawkeye corrected, standing. "You were poking around in my head without permission."
"I had to!" She blurted. "Tony was thinking of kicking you out of the group. He thought you were up to something. He thought you were, you know..." Wanda stood and brushed off her dress. "Part of the bounty hunters."
"I was for a while," Hawkeye confessed. "I left whenever my job killed everything and everyone I loved. I know more about the ins and outs of their team than anyone else. It would be stupid to get rid of me."
"I know," Wanda bowed her head. "I'm sorry about what happened to you. It looks like neither of us had a very good start."
Hawkeye cleared his throat. "No. Things will be better when we get into a home. That's why we're leaving. Tomorrow."
Wanda started. "Tomorrow?" She hadn't even thought about which dolls to recruit next. They had no chance of making it out with just the four of them.
"I can tell Chris and Tony when night falls again. But Wanda-" he pointed a finger at her, more in fear than in warning. "You mustn't tell them what I was. This is the only chance I have to leave the life I destroyed. The dolls here won't rest until I'm dead."
"Yeah, me too." Wanda whispered.
"Come and take my box for the night. I can't sleep any more."
Wanda felt awkward and overwhelmed. She had seen enough for one day, and she wasn't about to refuse a comfortable bed. Hawkeye stood by the entryway again, probably thinking. Wanda assumed he was the kind of doll to think a lot. She wondered if that was good for a person. She didn't have to wonder for long. Sleep seized her hungrily as soon as her eyes were shut. Good thing, too. Tomorrow, she might be elsewhere.

Chapter ten: Like a Target
Rhodey had not expected them to leave the day after the two Hawkeyes reunited.
They abandoned their boxes early into the night, as soon as the last human left, and began their way across warehouse three to the packaging center.
"We'll be there first thing in the morning." The Captain America doll had said optimistically.
"Yeah, maybe they'll still take the four of us together," the Iron Man doll added, giving the red woman a small punch on the arm. "We'll be an exclusive set. People have seen sets of six. They haven't seen us, though."
The Hawkeye doll and the red woman were both tight-lipped for most of the journey. Each one kept continually glancing at the other nervously.
They reached the packaging center at dawn.
Tony pretended to hold a microphone to the mouth of his suit as he comically said, "Last stop: district one, home of warehouse three's packaging center. Here dolls of all shapes and sizes will be forced into cardboard prisons for any time between 2 days and 2 weeks to arrive at where... well, we don't know where. Good luck to you, brave cadets. This is the end of the line."
"Toot toot." Chris said, making a train noise.
Wanda shook her head gravely. "Buncha dorks. You shouldn't make so much noise. Loki could still be around here."
"Or someone Loki knows," said Hawkeye. "He's got eyes everywhere."
The four of them stopped to look around, holding their breaths as they scanned the scene. Nothing. No doll dared to be out when the humans were so close to arrival. Except Rhodey, who had cleverly been grabbing on to the underside of a work bench as they talked.
"Eyes everywhere? Sounds like a medical condition," Tony joked. He seemed to take nothing seriously. "Come on. Let's go find ourselves a nice box."
They came across one that was the perfect size. Well, it seemed perfect, until they looked harder.
"This one's already occupied." Said Chris, peering in. A curious red face stared back. Rhodey thought at first this was the famous Magenta, with how strange he looked, but no, this was a Vision.
"Are the four of you leaving?" The doll asked politely.
"That's the idea."
"Then come in. I've got room for more. I was just on my way out as well." Vision patted a spot beside him, offering the others to sit down. They clamored in, surprised at his hospitality. Rhodey sneaked along the side of the box, his ear pressed against the cardboard to listen in.
"How long have you been in here?" Hawkeye asked.
"Goodness knows," Vision replied. "I've just woken up. Somehow I've always been here, ready to get sent out. But nobody ever bothered to pick me. I wonder if it was because I didn't have enough dolls with me to do so," he locked eyes with the red woman and titled his head. "Yes... I feel that this is the right place for all of us."
They sat awkwardly in silence until Hawkeye coughed and asked someone to check the time.
"Eager, are we?" Said Vision.
"Maybe I've got a good reason to be."
"My apologies. It is five minutes to six. How unusual. Five of us, and five minutes left until we go."
Five minutes that couldn't pass quick enough, especially for Rhodey, who was struggling to find even the smallest amount of a disguise.
"Psst. James! Hey, James!" A doll whispered from the racks below.
If dolls had a heart, Rhodey's would have stopped then. He glanced over his shoulder. A small, feminine doll, with green skin and ombre hair, was standing below the workbench, waving her arms like she was attending a concert. Gamora, a doll who might have been his one and only friend, but still definitely a bounty hunter. James jumped to the ground as quietly as he could.
"What were you doing over here? Loki's been off the wall looking for you," she tapped a pointed finger on his chest light. "You're not that easy to find, you know. All you are is a little red light in the darkness. Wandering. Like a cat chasing a laser pointer." Gamora was grinning in her accomplishment before noticing that Rhodey wasn't.
"What's the matter with you? We gotta go back. The humans are gonna come in soon."
"I know, Gamora," he swallowed. His voice sounded too desperate for his own liking. "I gotta go."
"What do you mean, go?"
"Like, go. Leave forever. Find a home," he grabbed Gamora's hands. "I'm done here. Loki doesn't need me. He never did."
Gamora ripped her hands away. She started shouting. "What's gotten into you? We need you and you know it! You're coming back with me and reporting to Loki. Now."
Rhodey looked into Gamora's eyes and saw ruthlessness. If he let her go, she would run back and fetch Loki, but if he went with her, he'd be seeing Loki anyways. There were still five minutes left on the clock. He had to trust that Gamora couldn't run that fast.
He activated his jetpack and blasted away, but Gamora had been expecting this. She took off at an angry sprint, expertly dodging benches and boxes on her way to district three. Rhodey launched himself higher until the red woman and her team were within eyesight again. Rhodey alighted slipped into a neighboring box that was barely big enough to hold a set of matches. It would have to do. He compacted himself into a corner and held his breath. Please, Gamora. Please understand me this one time. Trust me, if you've seen what I've seen, you would want to leave, too.
The alarms sounded across the warehouse, piercing Rhodey's ears. But this time, he welcomed the ringing. Doors swung open and humans filed in to the floor. His box was shut and taped over, then strung together with the red woman's box. Rhodey breathed a sigh of relief. Sure, he was a still target, but at least he was a moving one now.

Chapter eleven: Suddenly Elsewhere
A last-minute addition was suddenly kicked into the box, loose with the rest of them. They didn't care about bubble wrap or styrafoam. They just wanted to be gone.
The doll tumbled head-over-shoulders and landed before them. He paid his fall no attention. Rather, he beamed up at them like this was the best day in the world. That was not so surprising. The dolls didn't know one Thor that didn't radiate sunshine 24/7.
"Nice to meet you all. My name is Thor." Were his first words.
"What do you know, we'll be a set of six after all." Said Tony happily.
"If you know what's good for you, you'll shut up right now." Hawkeye told them.
"There are a lot of dolls in here. Have any of you seen my brother Loki?"
"You mean the Loki who's currently trying to kill us?" Chris asked.
"No, no, surely not!" Thor babbled. "My Loki is a nicer one."
"You sure about that, point break?" Tony asked, a sorry mistake.
Thor began to shout, spiking the nerves of everyone in the box. "That out there is not my brother! I've met him in my dreams, and I know that he is kind, and I know that one day-"
"I'm sorry, but shut up." Wanda whispered, before sending a tendril of magic to Thor's temples. He immediately was taken into a wide-eyed, dreamlike state of focus and silence.
Hawkeye signed her a "thank you", and Wanda nodded. She didn't need to understand ASL to know he was grateful.
"What's the scoop on Loki?" Tony asked. "Can he take on a human? How about more than one human? That has to be easy to do if he can just paralyze them, right?"
"What?" Hawkeye gawked.
"He's got the scepter."
"It doesn't work." Wanda and Hawkeye said in unison. They turned to look at each-other, each one more confused than the other.
"It won't be of any use to him," Hawkeye concluded. "He doesn't have any powers."
"He's not a Blazing Soul," Wanda agreed with a nod. "He's Tier Three."
"Alright, great, I'm glad you guys know that and we don't." Said Tony.
"Regardless, he's still a threat," Chris said. "We'll be safe as soon as we are in the truck. Until then, lay low and keep your voices down. Remember that all cardboard looks the same."
That became the team's mantra as they passed from conveyor to conveyor, hand to hand. All cardboard looks the same. All cardboard looks the same. They began to convince themselves that the humans had everything under control. They began to believe that the entire doll army would not be able to find them in time before they were packed away. They began to let their guard down, just a little. All cardboard looks the same. All cardboard looks the same. They will never find you. You will never see this place again.
The box shifted, and the dolls tumbled headfirst into a corner like marbles in a tin can. Cool metal flooring radiated from under the box. They were in the truck. There were a shriek and a thud with the doors shutting behind them, and the tiny window the packaging tape had formed was no longer letting in light. The fight was over.
"We're on our way to a new home." Vision whispered. He locked eyes with Wanda. "Things will be better now, won't they?"
"You tell me, Snorlax." Tony quipped. "We found you alone and asleep without a care in the world. Meanwhile, we've been running for our lives."
"I was not sleeping," Vision insisted. "Although I admit I was dreaming. Of horrible, terrible things... beyond imagination," he blinked. "I feel like they are supposed to mean something. Like... a vision, if I may say... of the past or the future. I cannot tell which."
"Let's hope it's the past," said Chris. "This is the chance for a new life. We don't need to carry any tragedy with us."
"Your story is hardly tragedy." Vision scoffed.
"Like you know!" Tony argued.
"This isn't helping." Hawkeye grunted.
"Haweye is right. We're all arguing like mortal enemies. I thought we were trying to be a family." Said Vision.
"We're not family." Said Hawkeye, embittered by the word.
"What are we, then?" Wanda asked.
No one knew. They embraced the rumbling of the truck rumbling beneath them, the tilt and shift with each turn they made to exit the lot. The increasing acceleration let them know that whatever they had left was far behind them now. For a couple of days, an ill-padded cardboard box and an Amazon delivery truck would be their lives. And then what? Somewhere in a child's toy chest, or in a glass display case in a fan's collection, or lost and forgotten under a bed or in the attic.
"We're out. This is the highway now," Chris stated. "Wanda, you can lift your spell on Thor?"
"I can't hold him much longer, anyways," Wanda admitted, pulling her hex away from Thor's head and back into her hands. "His mind is very strong, surprisingly."
Thor spluttered back to life like he was resurfacing from the sea. He shouted something incomprehensible in what everyone assumed was Norwegian, then watched, unphased, as Thor paced around the interior of the box, hitting walls and stumbling over the ground. Eventually, he ran out of fury when he hit his head- and hard. He wobbled, fell, and began snoring.
"Wonderful," Tony commented. "He's definitely not going to remember anything about us."
"We can play along when he comes to," Chris laughed. "Pretend like we've never seen him before, re-introduce ourselves. He might give us a break about finding his brother."
"He will get cold laying like that." Vision observed. He tugged at the ends of his cape, hoping it would become loose from his shoulders. It was firmly stuck. Vision shrugged and rolled onto his back, laying at Thor's side so that his yellow cape would cover Thor's sleeping body. Vision folded his fingers over his stomach and closed his eyes peacefully. No one was sure what to make of such an action. It was like a robot trying to replicate empathy.
"Not gonna lie, a nap sounds nice." Said Tony.
"I swear you've just read my mind." Said Chris, laying next to Tony as they set their arms around each-other's shoulders.
"That's Wanda's job," Tony pointed at Wanda, whose mouth turned up in a sad little smirk. She was feeling awfully tired after holding Thor steady for so long. And a nap would make the time in the box pass a little quicker... "Come join us, mind-reader."
Wanda shrugged and curled into a fetal position at Thor's other side and watched as Hawkeye stared down at them, the shadows in the box obscuring all emotion in his face.
"You too, Hawkeye?" She asked. "Come on. It's December out there. You'll freeze if we don't conserve as much warmth as possible."
"I'm fine."
Wanda titled her head. The smallest gesture; the quietest question. Hawkeye rolled his hands and laid down at Wanda's feet, no magic required to convince him. Wanda smiled as she felt Hawkeye grab her heel. It wasn't going to be enough warmth from her body to carry on to his, but it was a start. Hawkeye wasn't a bad egg, she thought. Besides, all eggs can be cracked. Wanda hated when anyone felt left out, and luckily, she had only begun to find his weak spots.
The Pocket-Sized Avengers, as they had later decided to be called, were to awake in the new home by January 3rd, 2018. It was a new year in a new home.
And maybe... just maybe... it would be a new family.


-Loki

T.E.A. with Benny and Napoleon

Despite our absence for almost a month now, no, the blog is not dead.
As Elsa will probably mention in her Halloween post (due to come out in early November), October is a busy month in my family. And now that I'm a college kid, midterms were stacked onto that already-congested schedule. Well, I guess saying "kid" is a stretch now, since I had my birthday this month, and the number is big enough to tell me otherwise. And while Elsa, Moana, or Loki, could have used this time to write, what was there to write about? Life was pretty simple for them when I was always away from home. I figured I could reach a happy medium between my active life and their boring on the day of Halloween, when I decided to pull Benny and Napoleon aside to carve pumpkins with them.
Welcome to T.E.A. with She and the nutcracker brothers!
***
Benny and Napoleon were strange characters on the blog.
Elsa had written their stories back in Christmas of 2014, and ever since then, they seemed contented with remaining the extras in the movie of their own lives. Hadn't their stories continued on? Why was nobody including them? Perhaps they were, but as I was reading the posts past to present, neither Benny nor Napoleon interacted much with the other dolls. I get enjoying solitude, but it had to get lonely after a while. I would know, so that made me the perfect person to pull me into the fun of life.
I found the brothers in what the dolls had dubbed "the library". In reality, it was my parent's bedroom, with the computer room connected, where my dad had bookcases full of hundreds upon hundreds of books. I'm a poet, probably, so I had little interest in the books he bought. Biographies, state attraction guides, and survival manuals, and of course, American history books. I had no doubt that Napoleon loved these, and Benny was just tagging along to help his brother learn to read.
"No, look here. It says providence. The capital of Providence in Rhode Island." Benny explained, pointing to a book that was stood open in front of Napoleon.
"Not residence?" The other nutcracker asked.
"No."
Napoleon straightened his collar. "At least I got the second part right."


"You guys doing okay?" I asked tentatively, passing through the doorway to the library and trying to keep my footsteps as loud as possible as not to surprise them.
"Yes, we're alright," Benny sighed. "A little frustrated, I suppose. Napoleon has been needing a refresher course after losing most of his American history knowledge to amnesia that one time."
"Things were a lot easier back in the gift shop. All they would have to do is play videos. Documentaries every day on repeat. A much easier way to consume knowledge." Napoleon huffed.
"I remember." I said. When I was, God, I should say... maybe five years old? Older or younger... I'm not sure... my grandpap took me to a national park up north somewhere. The park to me didn't matter, as I didn't have much appreciation for nature when I had seen a shiny Christmas nutcracker in the gift shop when we had went in to pay for tickets to the incline. That nutcracker all I could think about. I must have annoyed my grandpap enough during the incline ride and the hike around the park, so he went back into the gift shop and bought it for me. The trick was, I had to wait until Christmas. I agreed, even though Christmas was six months away. It's amazing what lengths kids will go to whenever they want something bad enough. 
And now there he was, standing before me, alive as anyone you'd run into on the street. It was a weird world I lived in, yet certainly a less lonesome one now.
"I'm glad you can remember." Said Napoleon bitterly.
"I'm sorry. Poor choice of words. Can I make it up to you?"
"How?"
"Well, if you guys are willing to take a break... I got some mini pumpkins that need carving, and I've got a couple hours to spare before class..." I stopped talking, as they could see where this was going. They made no argument against putting their book down for another day and helping me set up the bedroom for a pumpkin carving session, complete with tools, buckets, and old mail laid out to protect the floor.


"Is this a Christmas catalog?" Benny asked, his whiskers prickling with intrigue as he flipped through the pages.
"Yeah, I guess. They've sent us those magazines for years, but we never buy anything. They're just fun to look at."
"I'd imagine you'd get some good ideas from it." Napoleon mentioned. 
"As a matter of fact, I might be," Benny said. "Do you have any more white pumpkins?"
"Downstairs." I said vaguely, concentrating more on cutting a perfect circle around the stem of my pumpkin than the mischievous nutcracker who had just run out of the room.
"What do you think he's up to?" Napoleon asked.
"Trouble."
"That much is obvious."
Napoleon stared at his pumpkin for a while, a squat orange one, before realizing that he hadn't yet hollowed out the middle.
"Stumped on the design?"
"Not terribly. I just realized this is my first time ever pumpkin-carving. I never thought I'd be able to. Every year I smell pumpkin like this right before Halloween, but I always thought it was someone baking a pie, or a cake, or something tasty."
"No," I laughed in agreement. "I would not eat pumpkin guts."
"I wouldn't, either, even if I could," Napoleon winced. He reached into the hole at the top and came out with armfuls of stringy, odorous slime. "This is stickier than I would have thought."
The door burst open, though probably not intentionally, as another small white pumpkin, similar to the one that was already at Benny's carving station, rolled through. Benny came in with a stumble in his step, holding a third white pumpkin that covered his entire line of view.


"Benny, that pumpkin probably weighs more than you!" I exclaimed, taking the pumpkin from his arms and setting it down. "Just what are you going to do with it?"
Benny brushed himself off. "Thank you. I'm going to build a snowman."
"A snowman."
"Yes, that's what I said."
"With pumpkins?"
Benny shrugged. "Why not?"
"Fine, but I'm not helping you if it involves more pumpkin guts." Napoleon said, sloughing another scoop into the bowl beside him.
"No pumpkin guts." Benny stated.
"Count me in."
Napoleon dropped his work immediately to assist his brother with stacking pumpkins and placing pins to hold them together. They tied scarves and stabbed sticks in the same ways you would a regular snowman.
As I watched them work together, I couldn't help but smile. I thought about the brotherly bond they had, despite not being actual brothers. Sure, I knew that no one in the doll world was related by blood, as there was no blood between plastic, but I wondered if they knew that they weren't always this way. Napoleon was one of my first dolls, ever, which made him special enough to leave out all year 'round, even when it wasn't Christmas. Benny came a little later, but they probably didn't realize the time difference after Benny was being put in the attic year after year. Benny had not come from the same shop as Napoleon had. In fact, it was far from that. Benny was a dollar store nutcracker, a nutcracker people buy one year and toss out the next. They weren't practical by any means of cracking nuts, and only a few of them were "pretty". Something about Benny was different. I think he was one of the first things I'd bought on my very own. I was seven years old when I began receiving an allowance from my parents. It wasn't much, so the dollar store was the place to go for impulse buys at that age. Benny had been an impulse buy, too, but the difference was, I couldn't let him go. The fad never faded with him. How could I have one brother and not the other, after all?


"What do you think of our snowman, She?" Napoleon asked.
I set down my knife and looked over my shoulder at their creation. It was a snowman... I think. I titled my head to match it's tower-of-Pisa lean.
"Um... it's interesting." I said, as nicely as I could.
"Oh, we know it's ugly," Benny replied. "Admittedly, pumpkin carving is more difficult than we thought."
"And we didn't even carve it!" Napoleon added.
"What do you think of mine?" I grinned and rotated my pumpkin their way. It was a ghoulish thing, with narrowed eyes and a large, hungry mouth, with teeth marked in the orange flesh. It was pretty ugly, too, but intentionally so. Save the beauty for Christmas, right?
"I like it, but I feel like it's missing something." I explained.
"Hm... I think I know what it might be."
"What is it?"
Napoleon went back over to his own pumpkin and finally started carving. "You'll see. It'll be horrifying. David Pumpkins will be proud."
"He had better be," Benny sniffed. "We suffered long enough for these pumpkins."
Napoleon laughed. "You suffered? You haven't got a spot of guts on you!" He picked up a string of the innards that was lying limp on the catalog and tossed it at his brother. It wrapped immediately around Benny's shoulder. Benny squealed like a small rodent and threw it onto the ceiling.
And... it stuck there.
"Uh oh."
"It's okay," I said, not caring one bit. "Let's see how long it lasts up there. What's your bet? Wait until Thanksgiving or see if my parents notice before then?"
"What's the reward?"


"More pumpkin guts." I giggled, throwing another handful of the strings around.
Benny dodged it, squealing again. "Why are they so cold and wet? This is disgusting! I am never carving pumpkins again!"
"Aw, but I thought we were having fun," I paused. "Weren't you guys having fun?"
"It was nice until it became a food fight." Benny crossed his arms.
"Okay, okay, food fight over. But seriously. Why don't you guys participate more in the others' adventures? You know, the ones that are written on the blog?"
Benny and Napoleon looked at each-other awkwardly, looking for an answer.
"Well, it's not that we weren't invited. It wasn't a matter of invitation." Benny eventually spoke.
"We do other fun things," Napoleon said. "Whenever Elsa uses her powers to create a snow day, we'll do that, or whenever there's an air hockey tournament in the basement, we'll play a game or two."
"We're old souls, She. We've done everything there is to do."
"You haven't carved pumpkins."
"What Napoleon and I are trying to say is... we find entertainment in other things. Right now we're trying to gain as much wisdom as we can. When Elphaba's not using the iPad, we watch nonfiction movies. We spend a lot of time in your library. Sometimes we go outside and Westley tells us what leaves are from which trees, and what time of year you'll see certain birds... and well, maybe you don't understand at your age, but for us... that is fun."
"I just don't want anyone to feel left out. I didn't have a lot of friends growing up. Probably because I was obsessed with dolls," I managed a small smile, but it still hurt. "I feel responsible for you guys. Whenever something goes wrong, I want to be there. Whenever something good happens, I want to be a part of it. You're like my second family."
The nutcracker brothers fixed me like a sympathetic gaze. They looked truly appreciated.
"Don't worry about us, She," Benny said. "We're just two old men enjoying our lives as we see fit. But humans... humans can do so much more than we can. We're not jealous. We're not sad. We want to see you live your life in the best way you can. If that's spending time with dolls, that's fine. But don't forget what you are." Benny placed his little wooden hand upon mine. Both were alive, but only one of them was living.


Napoleon coughed. "Elphaba talks about dating apps. Do they have one for finding friends? Human friends?"
I laughed. "I dunno, probably. I'll look into it later. Or maybe I'll just stop being a coward and start talking to people."
"That's the spirit. 'Down with the cowardice!' That's what president Roosevelt always said."
"Did he really?"
"No, I just made that up," Napoleon chuckled, believing that to be the funniest joke in the world. He bent and lifted the miniature pumpkin which he had now finished carving. "Anyways, here's the pumpkin I made you."
"You made me a pumpkin?" I gasped, feeling suddenly like a mother feigning shocked over her toddler's arts project. It was a simple pumpkin, but it was a very good one. Sad, expressive eyes with an equally sad mouth, downturned into a frightened sob.
"I thought you might want to put it in your pumpkin's mouth."
"Like a cannibal?"
"Yes... actually, there was a cannibalistic event in America in the 1850s..."
"Stop, stop, okay, I've heard enough! Cannibal pumpkins are all I can handle." I wedged Napoleon's pumpkin in my own pumpkin's mouth. It was a perfect fit, both physically and metaphorically.
"Just wait until your family sees this nonsense." Said Benny.
"Oh, don't worry, they love creepy stuff," I said, taking the pumpkin into my arms. "Shall we put these by the fireplace?"
"Have you got any tealight candles? They'll look better in the dark."
"But of course," I replied. "Benny, let me help you with that snowman."


I placed them by the fireplace downstairs with the rest of the indoor Halloween decorations, including the pumpkin my sister had carved and our tiny army of gourds.
"There, all ready for Halloween," I stated proudly, stepping back to admire them. Yep, my parents were going to think I was seriously messed up after they got home and saw this. Whatever, I thought. It was fun. "Should I make some tea now?"
The nutcrackers decided yes. Our tea of choice was blackberry cinnamon and candy corn was our snack.


"It's nice to relax like this," Napoleon said. "Especially after what happened yesterday."
"Mm-hm," I agreed, taking a sip of my tea so I didn't have to talk. On the 30th, the dolls had their Halloween celebration, it was certainly a day they would not soon forget. But it wasn't my job to talk about it. It was my job to stand outside and give candy to the trick-or-treaters. Don't worry, a blog post is coming soon, and I think you'll like it.


See you when it's time for T.E.A.,
She

Sunday, September 29, 2019

A Summary of September

Hello, all! It's Elsa again, and wow, it's good to be back on the blog. It feels like I haven't written in ages, but if I'm honest, there wasn't much for me to write about personally. Life was generally the same day to day, and She and Loki had much more interesting story to tell than I. That was, until September, when my life changed drastically. I won't say if it was for better or for worse, but I'll have you know that two new dolls were welcomed into the Room She Lived In during this month.
Read on to find out who they are!
***
Someone really ought to change the calendar, I thought. September 1st, while still technically summer, feels more like autumn than any other day of the year. The other dolls could feel it, too, that much was obvious. The humans had brought down typical fall decor from the attic to change the look of the house from cool and spacious to cozy and stylish. Wreaths made of gold and orange leaves were hung in every doorway, pumpkins were piled by the flowerpots, fairy lights were strung up on the ceiling to make up for the lack of sunlight during the day. As a fun activity for the dolls while the humans were away, She left us in charge of decorating her room to prepare for the upcoming season. Nessa with her artistic flair for most things, was in charge, which would have us finished in about an hour, had she and Vision not been attached at the hip.
They were a cute couple, no doubt about that. Certainly a contrasting one. Outgoing, optimistic Nessa, paired with the shy and calculating Vision. Wasn't there a human saying that goes "opposites attract"? Could the same go for dolls and their magnets?
My task was to make a maypole with orange, black and yellow ribbon. It looked more like Halloween than anything else, but at least the children were having fun. I enjoyed watching them run about me, chasing each other around the maypole as I held it steady. Kate was always getting tangled, Meiling wanted to spin the ribbon the fastest, and Adrina was always trying to order her brother around, while Oliver cared more about which color should be used next than anything else. Still, as messy as it was, I could tell exactly which child had played their part in its construction, and for some reason, that pleased me.


"It's done! It's done!" Meiling shouted, jumping up and down.
"Yes, it's done," I decided, tying off the end of each ribbon and propping the maypole up against the wall. "Ta-da! Great job, guys!"
"High-five?" Kate asked, because that was her new favorite thing.
"Yes, we can all get high-fives." I went down the mismatched row of children, waiting for them to make the first move and smack my hand before moving on. As soon as they had done so, they scattered like seeds in the wind, back to their respective parents, all except Kate.
"Up, Aunt Elsa?" She asked, stretching out her little arms at me.
"No, sorry, Aunt Elsa has to work still." I explained.
"Awww..." Kate pouted.
It broke my heart to break her spirit, but she was not mine. "Go run off and find Natasha, okay? She'll give you a piggy-back ride."
"Okay!" Kate replied, her momentary sadness gone as she skipped away in search of her mother.
"Remember to ask nicely, okay?" I reminded her, but the girl was already out of earshot. I watched her leave and wondered, for a second, what it would be like to be on the receiving end of that run, the one she belonged to, the one she felt the most safe with, the one whose piggy-back rides could be considered more than just fun, but bonding.
A home.
Why don't you and Steve give a child a home? Your own child? Half of me thought.
No, no, that's silly. We've barely been married a year! I could never ask him that now. Said the other half.
But what if he feels the same way? What if he also wants a child, but is too afraid to ask for the same reason?
I guess I could try. I'll bring it up at the date.
I had to ask Nessa permission to go, since I had no idea how far along we were in her decorating plan. I found her practically wound around her boyfriend, Vision, as they painted small rocks cheerful colors to use as charms around the Room She Lives In.


"Do you two want any help with the decorating?" I asked.
Nessa unraveled herself from Vision's arms long enough to reply.
"Actually, you can take a break if you like, Elsa. We're pretty much set. Aren't we, honey bunches?" She cooed.
"Almost, love muffin." Vision said in turn. Such loving words sounded completely alien coming from an android, but perfectly natural. The two of them had been together ever since the human's trip to California (or Caliofrotnia, as Olaf called it) and they were extremely comfortable with letting the world know it. I had to envy their boldness. Steve and I were close as peas in a pod, but it was difficult to express those feelings when around thirty-four dolls in the same room as you. Almost as if on cue with my thoughts, Nessa said, "You and Steve should go on a date. Take some time for yourselves! You do enough for us already."
"Yes, I agree. Dates are nice." The tongue-tied Vision added, watching Nessa until she met his gaze. Nessa noticed, grinned, and pulled his chin down to her height until their lips met in a playful kiss.
"Dates are always nice with you, honey bunches."
"That's because you make them worthwhile, love muffin."
I could tell we weren't going to get anywhere if we kept on like this. I had never been a third wheel before, but I didn't plan to become one, either.
"Okay, I'll go find Steve. Thanks!"
Speaking of love muffins, She's mother had recently baked some pumpkin muffins Steve and I just had to try. So that was what we did. I was able to pull him away from a garland he and Kristoff were working on and set a table for us in the path of sunlight by the back door. It was the place of our first date, which I will always remember as a wonderful time, despite everything that happened afterwards.
It was such a comfortable atmosphere, just the two of us alone for a chunk of time in our small world. It would have been enjoyable, and carefree, had I not been constantly thinking about how I wanted our small world to get a little bigger. Steve had no idea, I could tell. He happily took his muffin and coffee with me just like this was any other date.


I started with small talk. It would be better to ease him into the idea of kids. "Gosh, when's the last time we went on a date? A real date?"
Steve shook his head in disbelief. "I couldn't tell you. Isn't that crazy? We've got all this time and all the ways to spend it except this." He took my hand and begun rubbing his thumb across my knuckles, our engagement bracelets (well, wedding bracelets now, really) shining like blue and red glass. In his eyes my future shimmered, still there, still promising me there could be more to this relationship than husband and wife.
I wanted us to be a mother and a father.
"Steve, I have to tell you something."
"Anything." He retracted his hand and brought the muffin piece to his nose, not realizing the bomb I was about to drop on him.
"I want to raise a child with you!" I blurted, then sucked in my breath and waited for Steve's reaction. So much for easing him into it.
"No kidding!" He laughed, playing off his shock. "I assumed you did. I've seen the way you look at Carol and Meiling, and Olaf and Idina and their little ones, and..." Steve waved a hand in the air to make up for all the names in the PSA. "The rest of them. I'm not surprised, Elsa. Not at all."
"Well, would you?" I asked. "Would you want to, too?"
Steve got very quiet and very focused on his muffin. "Yes. Yes, I'm ready for that next step."
I let it go. "Oh, great, because I was so nervous you would say no, and then I'd have to deal with these feelings for the rest of my life in silence, and even though none of us don't know how long that is, I thought it might be a little better with a kid to mentor, you know, to take care of and see that they grow up good and-" my speech was interrupted with a kiss from Steve.
"Elsa, we would not be magnet mates if we did not see eye to eye."
"Most days," I agreed. I felt my nerves melting away. "So, what kind of child would you want?"
"You mean like, a boy or a girl?"



"I suppose that's a good place to start."
 Steve and I both looked at each-other, giddy with anticipation, both waiting for the other to say something first.
"I don't want to disagree." I said finally.
"If we do, we'll just get two kids," Steve shrugged. "It's been done before."
"Yes, but I don't know if I'm ready for that kind of responsibility!"
"True, true," Steve said, licking his lips and coming up with a plan. "On three, okay?"
"Okay."
"One, two thr-"
"Girl!"
Our words overlapped, and we knew what that meant.
"So it's settled, then. We both want a girl."
"I guess so," I giggled. "Girls are trickier than boys, though. I'm surprised you said that, Steve."
"Funny, I thought boys were trickier. Either way, I'm up for the challenge."
"What should we do now?"
"Come with me. We can tell She about this together."
"But our muffins," I whined. "Why cut our date short so early? We were having such a nice time."
"Imagine sharing muffins with our little one." Steve told me, raising his eyebrows.
That was such a lovely picture, it was all he had to say to get me going. We went to She, personally. This was more than something that could be put on the Request Sheet. We decided to adopt a child who was a "used" doll, a doll not unlike my sister, Anna, who had come from a different home that, for whatever reason, could no longer keep her there. It wasn't meant to be a work of charity, it was meant to help them find a forever home. Steve and I described our perfect child to She, who took notes that were invisible to us, and then told us to come back within a week's time.
By that time, our child would have arrived.
And on September 9th, She called us to her side.


"Special delivery," She told us with a giddy smirk, bringing a small cardboard box into the room. I grabbed Steve's arm immediately, seeking comfort in his touch before the big moment. "It's a girl, like you asked, and found on Ebay, like Anna. I hope you like her."
"We'll more than just like her," Steve said. "We'll treat her as family."
She placed the box on the floor in front of us. It was surprisingly still, almost eerily so, and that's when I began to get worried again.
"I'll leave you two alone to introduce yourselves. No one ever forgets a first impression."
"Don't I know it," I muttered. "Do you have anything to open the box?"
"Yeah, here. Be careful with it, okay?" She handed us a boxcutter, blunt and retractable for safety purposes, and for that, I was grateful. It would be terrible to harm our child before we'd even met her.
I gave Steve the job of slicing the box, since my hands were glowing too fiercely for me to concentrate. Once he had, we pushed away the cardboard flaps together, until we could make out the doll that was inside.
And there she was, our little girl.
Tucked away behind balls of newspaper, the doll lay curled into the fetal position, both hands set in firm fists. Her thick black brows were furrowed against a dark brown face, and her wide lips were set into a stern line. She had ordered us a mini Moana doll, and that's exactly who she looked to be.
"It looks like she's sleeping," Steve whispered. "Do you think She's having a nightmare?"
"I hope not. Let's wake her carefully just to be safe."
Neither of us were sure how to do that. I was beginning to wonder if we knew how to do anything.
"Nudge her shoulder," Steve told me. "That usually does the trick."
I reached in and tapped her arm. The little doll was pushed easily onto her back, and the newfound chill of waking up had set in. The girl stirred and blinked her large black eyes until they focused on our faces, faces that probably looked very large and imposing from inside the box.


"Good morning, darling." Steve said, always the first to brave new words.
"Where am I?" The little doll asked groggily. She rolled away from the bubble wrap until the box let her go and she was standing right before us, not any taller than my forearm.
"You're in your new home," I explained, trying to mask the emotion in my voice. This was exactly the kind of child I had been wanting. "We are Steve and Elsa."
The little doll fixed us with a curious look, switching from me to Steve, and back to me again.
"What's your name, sweetie?" I asked, my voice gentle as to keep her comfortable. I knew how frightening it could be to get a new home. But the Moana doll didn't show a speck of fear anywhere.
"Thalia," she replied. "That's the name I've had since I was made," she paused and scrunched up her nose in suspicion. "Wait. I know you. You're gonna be my new mommy and daddy, aren't you?"
"Well, yes, if you want us to," Steve said, touching my arm. "Who told you that?"
"Brielle, from my old home," Thalia explained. "She said for me to call me her nanny. She said that I didn't have a mommy and daddy, but one day I might, if the humans sold me. And she told me that when the humans took me away and put me in a big dark box that I shouldn't be worried, because that meant I was going somewhere else," Thalia dropped her oar and looked around. "Is this the somewhere else?"
"Yes, this is the Room She Lives In. You'll be staying with us, and you'll have a very big family from now on." I told her.
"For how long?"
"For how long?" I repeated.
"Yeah... 'cause Brielle told me that... she told me that humans can't keep dolls forever."
We chose our next words carefully. This parenting thing was not as easy as it looked.
"Well, do you think that other dolls can keep a doll forever?" Steve asked.
Thalia rubbed her eyes. "I don't know."
"We'd like to keep you forever, if you'd let us," I added. "That's what good mommies and daddies do. Forget about the humans. As long as we're together, the rest will fall in place." The last part sounded really good, but in reality, I had pulled the phrase from a refrigerator magnet in the humans' house.
Thalia was still doubtful. "How long is forever?"


"However long you want it to be," Steve replied. "Thalia, dear, don't worry about this too much. We're happy to have you with us. Do you think you'll be happy here?"
"Do you have a bathtub?"
A bathtub? That question came right out of the blue. Dolls didn't need to take baths. Did they do that at her old home?
"Yes, there's a bathtub here. Why?"
Thalia's face lit up and she scurried past us and ducked into the box again, returning with a plastic canoe that she struggled to scrape along the carpet.
"This is my canoe... that I came with. I use it to sail inside bathtubs. But my mast broke in the box," Thalia pointed at a part where the plastic had cracked in two, splitting the sail from the rest of the canoe.
"Hm, maybe Moana can fix it? She seems to know a lot about sailing." I told Steve, not intending for Thalia to overhear. She did anyways.
"You have another Moana?"
"Yes, would you...?"
"Can I see her? Pretty please? Pretty please?" Thalia yelped, ditching her canoe and running to the door.
"Hold on, sweetie, hold on!" I called. "You don't know this house yet. Let us take you to Moana."
"I can find her!" Thalia insisted. "I'm a Moana, and Moanas are wayfinders!"
Before either of us could stop her, Thalia was using she's dresser next to the door like an obstacle course, getting higher and higher until she was able to jump up onto the doorknob, using her entire body's strength to spin it open. She tumbled to the ground, not caring how hard she fell, and ran out into the hallway.
"Thalia, slow down!"
"Thalia, be careful!"


Steve and I warned, but it was no use. Thalia was motivated, and when she was motivated, she was unstoppable. She skated down the handrail of the stairs like a slide and landed both feet on the ground on the first floor foyer. I knew Moana was outside, and the back door was on the left side of the house. Going right would led you to the garage, and well, it was all a dead end from there. Thalia didn't know this and started going right.
"Wrong way, Thalia sweetie!" I shouted from the top of the stairs. Once she ran the other direction and was out of our view, Steve turned to me.
"Independent little thing, isn't she?"
"And stubborn. Like you."
"I am not stubborn!"
"Just proved my point," I laughed. "Steve, are we way in over our heads?"
"Are you trying to say this wasn't a good idea?"
"No, no, not at all. I think it was a very good idea. But Thalia is, well, very energetic. Are we going to be able to keep with her?"
Steve shared with me a word of advice that I swear I shall never forget. He said, "I didn't say it was going to be easy. I said it was going to be worth it."
"I don't remember you telling me anything like that before." I replied. But I cherished his statement, every word.
Thalia trained herself to spend her days between two worlds. During the day, she was adventuring with Moana, and at night, Steve and I would put her to bed. It was an activity nearly every doll enjoyed, since children require so much to get them to sleep. Tea would have to be made, stories would have to be read, songs would have to be sung. The blankets had to be right at the base of her chin, the pillow had to be cradled in her arms. Our little girl was adorable at any time of the day, but at night, when she was most relaxed, she could almost treat us like the mommy and daddy we were supposed to be, with crawling into Steve's lap and letting me brush her hair. These quiet, contented moments were the ones I cherished the most. I could see why Olaf and Idina were always doting on their children. How could you not be? They were the most wonderful things on earth.


Still, life passed by without too much change. While Steve was teaching Thalia how to play air hockey in the basement, I was helping She, Nessa, and Vision finalize the rest of the fall decor.
"This maypole is adorable, Elsa," She said, hanging it from her closet door. "It's a shame you didn't have Thalia in time for her to help out."
I sighed. "Oh, trust me, decorating is the farthest thing from her mind. She can't stay still, not even for a second."
"The maypole would have been done in no time at all, then," She said with a smirk. "Anyways, I think the black ribbon you used was a good choice. It'll match all the Halloween decorations I'll probably be buying this year."
"I almost forgot about Halloween!" Nessa cried. "How could I forget about Halloween? It's like the best holiday of the entire year. Besides Christmas, and Easter, and-"
"Valentine's Day?" Vision added from atop She's bed, where he was teaching himself how to read.
"Yes, that too. I can't wait for us to spend our first Valentine's Day together, honey bunches!"
She coughed loudly. "Speaking of Halloween," She pulled an old tote into her lap. "I've got this old wig from a few Halloweens ago that I can't bear to get rid of. Can any of you tell me what to do with it?" She removed the lid and titled it so that the tote's interior was eye level with us dolls. A straight, somewhat unruly pink wig lay inside.
"What were you that year?" Nessa asked, immediately reaching in and taking the wig. "I've never heard of a Halloween costume with pink hair."
She looked embarrassed. "Cotton candy."
Nessa laughed. "As a costume?"
"Hey, don't knock it 'til you try it. I got so many compliments, it was insane," She paused. "Wait, no, that was the year after. Yeah, nobody knew who I was supposed to be. And the thing is, I spent good money on this stupid wig. I think if I brush it up again, it'll be in good condition, but..." She took the wig from Nessa's hands and tried to slide it on over her head. The band was not going to stretch any further, and she'd barely made it back over her ears. "It's practically child size. I can't throw it away, but I can't keep it the way it is. Any ideas?"


"Hmm..." Nessa thought. "Make into one of those Victorian hair wreaths. That would be a good fall decoration."
"Absolutely not!"
"I was kidding! What if you took the hair and donated it?"
"It's synthetic."
"What if you weren't going to donate the hair to a human, though?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, wouldn't a doll love to have super long pink hair? I know I would," Nessa lifted one of her braids. "But something tells me that would not work for me."
"I like your hair just the way it is, love muffin." Vision commented.
"Thanks, honey bunches. But seriously! Get another doll and give them extensions," Nessa gasped. "Ooh! Get a Rapunzel doll. She's always been my favorite Disney princess. And what Rapunzel doll wouldn't want even longer hair? They probably wouldn't care what color it is."
"Good point," She raised the wig and started combing through it with her fingers. "It's going to need a lot of work done before then."
"Plenty of time to order a Rapunzel doll offline." Nessa winked.
She groaned. "Fine, you got me. Looks like my collection will be getting even bigger this month," She looked at me suddenly. "Not that there's anything wrong with that."
"No," I agreed. "I would like a Rapunzel, too. I think she would be fun to have around."
And so it was settled. A Rapunzel Disney classics doll was to be expected in the mail within the next week, same as Thalia. And while the rest of the dolls eagerly waited for her arrival, Steve and I had our hands full with Thalia, who seemed to be getting more and more active as the days went on. The only time we could catch a break was when she was with Moana, her favorite "aunt", as it were. The times matched up perfectly to where Moana was with Thalia the moment She came to me with news about Rapunzel.


"She's here," She whispered, her voice strained with excitement as she showed me a picture of the the new doll on her phone. "We've already started talking. Last night, I went down to the kitchen and braided her regular hair in with the wig. She loves it more than anything."
"She's a good fit for us, then!" I exclaimed. "Where is she? She will probably want to see the face of another doll."
"I took her to a mirror so she could see what I'd done. It's in the library upstairs. She's been there ever since."
"Got it." I said with a nod. I knew exactly where the library was. It was the one place I could find Loki on his off days with the PSA.
The library was oddly quiet when I got there, however. No sing-song voice, no sounds of exploration, no running or dancing.
"Rapunzel?" I called out. "Are you in here? She sent me."
"Come in." A small voice replied. I turned the corner, where the bedroom met the bookshelves, and saw Rapunzel standing in front of the mirror. Yes, She had chosen correctly. This Rapunzel was exactly as I had imagined her to be. She was slow in her movements, yet not exactly careful. She had an intent, dreamy look in her eyes, and she was awash with color: vibrant, glittery purple, soft gold, pastel pink.
She caught me in the reflection of the mirror and turned around, greeting me with a dreamy smile. "Isn't this the most magnificent library?" Rapunzel asked distantly in greeting. "I wish I could read."
"It's easy. You just have to get started," I said. "I'm Elsa. Nice to meet you."
Rapunzel seemed to ignore my last statement and instead began admiring her extra-long pink and yellow braid in the mirror by the human's closet. She twirled, letting her skirt fan out and her hair follow, then paused, readjusting a ribbon here and there, and twirled again.
"Do you like my hair?"
"Of course." I said.


"I've never had pink hair before. Back at my old home, my human gave me gold thread and rhinestones to wear in my braid, and that made me feel like the most special doll in the world."
"And what happened to those?"
Rapunzel exhaled in a raspberry noise. "They got taken away from me. I'm a 2016 classic doll, and when the newer version came out and my humans found her, she got my gold thread and rhinestones."
"And then what did you do?"
"Hm? Oh. I ran away," Rapunzel said, pausing her twirls to fluff out her new plaits. She had said it so casually, like her rebelliousness didn't matter at all. "I escaped through the window when my humans were away and ran to a different house. The new people didn't know where I'd come from, so they sold me. And now I'm here," she looked in the mirror thoughtfully and held her hair, obsessed with the weight of it. "And I think I like this better."
"Well, we're glad to have you with us," I said. "But- if you don't mind me asking- weren't you afraid of breaking the Code of Dolls?"
Rapunzel's lips opened in a small "oh". "What Code?" She asked.
My small world stopped revolving. Never had I ever heard about a doll not knowing the Code. Even Olaf, naive as he could sometimes be, always had his brothers remind him to play dead when humans were around. Other than that one special case, I just assumed that dolls were made knowing that.
"You know... when dolls have to play dead around humans?"
"Oh, yes! That silly thing. No, we never followed it. My human was a collector. He had every Disney classics doll that ever entered the market, including me. And as soon as I arrived, he told me not to worry about it; the Code had already been broken. I was like what? Really? That can't be right, humans can't know... but he did. And everything was perfectly fine. Up until he took my presents away. I mean sure, they weren't mine originally. Nothing was 'owned' by anyone in that place. I inherited the thread and rhinestones from the 2015 Rapunzel doll, and it was only natural that the 2017 Rapunzel doll inherit mine when she came. But I had a full year of the most wonderful hair. I don't think humans realize how important hair is to a Rapunzel doll."
"I imagine so." I replied, not sure what else to say to that story.
"Anyways, I'm rambling. I see you have a big collection here, too."
"Oh, yes. And they were very happy to hear you were coming to live with us, especially Nessa. She's an Anna ornament, but Rapunzel is her favorite Disney princess."
Rapunzel blushed. "Really? Even when she's her own princess?"
"Well, you can still love who you are and have role models. Your movie inspired her to paint. Now she practices with Bob Ross nearly every weekend. I'm sure they would love to paint with you, too."
"Um, Elsa? I don't know how to paint. I've never done that before."
"No problem! They'll teach you," I insisted, offering my hand to lead Rapunzel into the Room She Lives In, where the other dolls were. "But first, you have plenty of dolls to meet."
"Fifty-seven of them? That's how many were in my old human's collection."
"Goodness, no, I can't imagine there being that many dolls in one house."
The corner of Rapunzel's lips twitched upwards in a small smile as I led her across the upstairs hallway. "She might get there one day, eventually." I heard her whisper before the door to the Room She Lives In opened to its latest guest.


Looking forward to our new adventures as a family,
Queen Elsa Rodgers